Stick it to the man

Whatever’s happened to true user activism, asks Daren Garratt.

Daren Garratt‘I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked, dragging themselves through the negro streets at dawn looking for any angry fix.’ Howl, by Allen Ginsberg (1956) 

What did we fight our battles for? What did we bury our loved ones for? Why did we galvanise, organise, demand our voices be both heard and acted upon and allow ourselves to believe we were actually changing anything? Why did we forge local, regional and national alliances, help bring waiting times down from 18 months to 18 days, advocate to move from 30ml ‘ceilings’ to optimal doses, or establish a culture of personal choice, clinical governance and equitable public health responses?

Why did we ever even bother wasting our anger, ’cos after ten years we’ve devolved into the pre-civilisation of user activism.

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not writing this through a rose-tinted, halcyon haze. Of course we made mistakes. Of course we didn’t get it all right. Of course we were a divided, bitchy, back-stabbing, frustrating and oppositional bunch. It was a far from perfect movement that was riddled with faults and clashing egos, but at least we were united in a divergent cause.

As ‘newbies’ coming into the field we were inspired because we saw and heard the creativity and calculated risk-taking that UKHRA, the Methadone Alliance, Exchange Supplies, NDUDA, Mainliners, HIT and Lifeline were utilising to tackle inequalities, challenge the status quo, pioneer harm reduction initiatives and reduce drug-related deaths… and we picked up the torch, carried it on, shared in the successes, learned from the mistakes and suddenly we had Morph, NUN, the reconfigured Alliance, DDN and

We were newly energised, had belief, dedication, support and, as activists, we had each other. We also had a (flawed but) functioning system of state-endorsed user engagement that encouraged and enabled locally commissioned flashes of brilliance to evolve, but because peer-led interventions were too reliant on the politics of location, personality and luck, it also proved unsustainable.

It was, I repeat, far from perfect but certainly inspiring and inspirational, and our conferences were our defining moments. They were our limited means to meet up, share ideas and best practice, hatch plots, put the world to rights, stick it to ‘the man’ and settle our personal wrongs… and they were effective.

I write this immediately after attending the 7th DDN conference, Make It Happen, and I just feel hollow, sad and… angry because I’m thinking about the sacrifices that were made in order to introduce equity, dignity, effectiveness, fairness and pride into the user activism movement, yet I saw no user activism present. The only movement was a sleight of hand; an illusion. It felt deceitful and fraudulent because this wasn’t our ‘user conference’ anymore. This was now a meeting of people who don’t take drugs anymore but insist on proudly and defiantly defining themselves, not by what they are but what they are not.

And because a large proportion of this demographic have clearly become so oppositional to active drug use and users, an ugly, pernicious streak has crept in. Now this isn’t a divisive sneer at ‘recovery’, because it is a viable lifestyle choice for some and deserves a celebratory platform. Neither is it a cheap, lazy criticism of DDN whose tireless commitment and organising is often unjustifiably maligned despite being only able to work with, and respond to, whatever local commissioners and market economies dictate.

No. This is a sad eulogy to a once vibrant movement that allowed the Make It Happen conference become the ‘Let It Happen’ one. The passion, spark, fight, resistance and anger has been replaced by a-whoopin’ and a-hollerin’, but in an area as emotive as drug use there is no ‘sense’ in ‘consensus’.

As John Lydon once said, ‘anger is an energy’, and energy propels, and propulsion is, literally, the way forward. But is there a way forward? Who are the next generation to break through and kick over the statues? Where’s the new breed? What will they howl? I can’t answer that, but I hope beyond hope that somebody out there can.

This article is dedicated to the memory and work of Alan Joyce. Ours is a fractured society in which the smallest of mercies are increasingly embraced with the greatest relief and I, for one, am relieved to know that at least the ‘Big Man’ didn’t live to see where our years of emotional struggle, direct personal action and targeted political activism have brought us.

Daren Garratt plays drums for The Fall.

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